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Kel'ri's Journal
"Seems weird that next time we sleep, it'll be on the 'Chaser. Gonna miss this place."
11/13/2013
11/12/2013
11/11/2013
11/10/2013
Kel'ri's Journal
Kel'ri approached the ornately carved headstone that bore her
mother's name and set a large bouquet of fragrant blossoms at its
base. She knew Varr'o stood several meters behind her in silent
vigil, remaining out of earshot but always within sight, ready to be
at her side should she need him. She sat in front of the large stone
marker with crossed legs and traced the letters carved into it with a
quiet reverence as tears slipped down her cheeks on either side of a
sad smile that an observer might find a bit foreign on the spacer's
usually spritely face. Of course, it was likely that the black hair
would seem even more foreign to anyone that knew her.
“I know it's been a long time since I came here,” the diminutive spacer began, her voice soft and cracked with emotion. “Ain't even set foot on Chandrila in near six years. Gonna be twenty-two in a couple days, but still feels like I'm fifteen, ya know? Last time I brought you flowers was about a year before I left.”
“Think I should tell you that I'm happy. I know you know why I left home when I did, and I didn't come home to rehash the past. Came to put it away. So, I ain't here to talk about that part. I'm here to tell you that I miss you. Used to be angry with you for leaving me, and I carried that with me a while, but not anymore. Now, I just wish I could feel you hugging me again, maybe tell me you love me.
“I got lost for a bit there, but now, I got a family and friends and a place where I belong. Chara's son found me. That's him back there on the path, actually. You should tell her that he turned out to be a good, honorable man, and you both should know he's been my protector and best friend. My heart was in so many pieces when he came along that I'd given up on it ever working proper, but...he's helped me put it back together, and he keeps it safe. Keeps me safe.
“There's Rhio. We adopted each other as sisters. You'd like her a lot. She's fierce and strong, and she's got a beautiful, generous heart.” Kel'ri chuckles a little. “We even sound like sisters. She tells me what to do, and I tell her where to shove it, and I worry over her like crazy. If I hadn't met her, I don't think I'd be here yet though. She makes me think about who I am and who I want to be – even when I don't like those things.
“Harkyn is my first mate. He thinks he's a screw-up like I think I am most of the time, but he ain't. He's loyal and smart, and he's one of those very good people that makes you want to be a better person, ya know? He backs my play, even when I'm dumb enough to get in over my head, and he's had my back through more than our share of tight spots.
“I gotta Twi'lek friend named Skyka. Pretty, smart, fun. Love her so much. She's like another sister.
“There's others too. I could name each one and tell you about them all day. They're like this huge, dysfunctional family that sorta...fits me, ya know?”
She looked over her shoulder toward where Varr'o waited for her, then turned back. “Anyway, I went back to our house and walked through the empty rooms, remembering things I hadn't let myself think of in a very long time. Don't worry, they were good memories mostly. In fact, it's a memory that brought me back to Chandrila in the first place. Remember when you told me about how a costume party was like a chance to play pretend for adults? You said you liked to call it 'Come as you're not'. Think I was eleven?
“I wanted to pretend for just a night that I was like you. Beautiful, smart, kind. Someone who could make a difference. You were the most graceful, elegant, strong woman I ever knew, and I thought maybe if I could be like that for just a couple hours...” Her voice broke this time, fresh tears joining those that had streaked her cheeks when she'd first arrived. “I figure everyone who's looked out for me since I left home was sent by you. Angels to watch over me, follow me, and surround me with the kind of love you always carried for me...teach me the things you never got to. So, I want to thank you for everything. I will always love you.”
“I know it's been a long time since I came here,” the diminutive spacer began, her voice soft and cracked with emotion. “Ain't even set foot on Chandrila in near six years. Gonna be twenty-two in a couple days, but still feels like I'm fifteen, ya know? Last time I brought you flowers was about a year before I left.”
“Think I should tell you that I'm happy. I know you know why I left home when I did, and I didn't come home to rehash the past. Came to put it away. So, I ain't here to talk about that part. I'm here to tell you that I miss you. Used to be angry with you for leaving me, and I carried that with me a while, but not anymore. Now, I just wish I could feel you hugging me again, maybe tell me you love me.
“I got lost for a bit there, but now, I got a family and friends and a place where I belong. Chara's son found me. That's him back there on the path, actually. You should tell her that he turned out to be a good, honorable man, and you both should know he's been my protector and best friend. My heart was in so many pieces when he came along that I'd given up on it ever working proper, but...he's helped me put it back together, and he keeps it safe. Keeps me safe.
“There's Rhio. We adopted each other as sisters. You'd like her a lot. She's fierce and strong, and she's got a beautiful, generous heart.” Kel'ri chuckles a little. “We even sound like sisters. She tells me what to do, and I tell her where to shove it, and I worry over her like crazy. If I hadn't met her, I don't think I'd be here yet though. She makes me think about who I am and who I want to be – even when I don't like those things.
“Harkyn is my first mate. He thinks he's a screw-up like I think I am most of the time, but he ain't. He's loyal and smart, and he's one of those very good people that makes you want to be a better person, ya know? He backs my play, even when I'm dumb enough to get in over my head, and he's had my back through more than our share of tight spots.
“I gotta Twi'lek friend named Skyka. Pretty, smart, fun. Love her so much. She's like another sister.
“There's others too. I could name each one and tell you about them all day. They're like this huge, dysfunctional family that sorta...fits me, ya know?”
She looked over her shoulder toward where Varr'o waited for her, then turned back. “Anyway, I went back to our house and walked through the empty rooms, remembering things I hadn't let myself think of in a very long time. Don't worry, they were good memories mostly. In fact, it's a memory that brought me back to Chandrila in the first place. Remember when you told me about how a costume party was like a chance to play pretend for adults? You said you liked to call it 'Come as you're not'. Think I was eleven?
“I wanted to pretend for just a night that I was like you. Beautiful, smart, kind. Someone who could make a difference. You were the most graceful, elegant, strong woman I ever knew, and I thought maybe if I could be like that for just a couple hours...” Her voice broke this time, fresh tears joining those that had streaked her cheeks when she'd first arrived. “I figure everyone who's looked out for me since I left home was sent by you. Angels to watch over me, follow me, and surround me with the kind of love you always carried for me...teach me the things you never got to. So, I want to thank you for everything. I will always love you.”
11/09/2013
11/08/2013
Kel'ri's Journal
*sound of metal objects bouncing off of metal objects and a slew of various expletives* "Ain't like I wanted to go to a stupid costume party anyway."
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